I am writing to you again to unleash my feelings in me.
Lately, defamatory accuses have been circulating around me that I have defamed someone. I was like: "Huh?". For those who have known me for years, they would have known that I am not the person who defames people.
I mean, defame them for what, seriously?
What do I get if I successfully defame someone? At most, I just can smile for a week to see someone falls. But hey, that smile only lasts for a week. I am not a guy that is into short-termness.
And, I refrain from defaming people because it's cheap. I strongly believe that, if you have the ability, people will recognise you, no point defaming someone to get attention. I always believe in proving ownself. If you fail that, don't you dare try dirty tricks.
I admit, I am clean. I never break any rules. I don't take bribes, I don't fall for pity or love.
I am a hard-punched iron heart guy who isn't afraid of any threats or seduction.
By the way, recent events has sent turmoils in my emotion control centre. I suddenly become extremely volatile. Switching between moods within seconds. As if I am experiencing menopause or menstruation.
Today I walked to school. I was glad that I helped someone on the way. I was glad that someone noticed my emotion disruption.
I didn't know my expressions were that obvious.
I will change, I promise.
After this week, my status is going to change. No more blabbering nonsense. Trying to be someone like I used to be.
For that, I have to take the price of not having a best friend in campus.
It's tough, but it should be done (I sound like Luna Moonfang here).
And I seriously hope that someone would pick up my CWW messages (3 of them, in total) and able to shed some light for their lives.